When Wants Mask True Needs.

A wise man who I love so dearly recently talked me though the reality that "Often you have to give up the things you want, for the things that you really need." It's no lie, I want a lot of things, really.

But when I stop and realize all my wants- the selfishness, foolishness and complete ridiculousness of them, I am quickly reminded of the truth of need vs. want. And slowly I am learning if none of my "wants" happen or maybe none of the things I always dreamed of go forth - still I am satisfied.

Lusting over all my wants rips me apart from the cross and mask the reality of my needs. I NEED very little--- In essence, The Gospel: relationships that refine me; community who fights for my sanctification and not my happiness; a church that IS the gospel to their community; pastors and leaders who exemplify the gospel first in their own lives.

Perhaps if what I really need is a mundane job, learning to stand firm in my convictions, raising children in the mess of the gospel, with a husband on the road- then to that I rejoice. I rejoice to the reality that not running off to Africa like I want, brings me right back to a place of continually learning submission and trust in who Jesus is. He knows what I need to be restored back into his perfect image-- He knows my needs and does not loose sight of the end goal- holiness. To a mundane, non-fancy or published, simple life I long for. Where did the lie that unless you are well known or doing something big and magnificent then you are worthless come from??? I am worthy in Jesus alone. His blood makes calls me into his royal kingdom and identifies me.